Angry, frustrated, saddened, irritated….
Any other words to express discontent
We all do this – even myself
But when you’re the subject of it,
it sets off bells and whistles within
Ii frequently have to have iron infusions
Yesterday was another one
It’s no big deal, i just lie there for a few hours
drip, drip, drip
oh, and of course, there’s the vitals
pulse, blood pressure and respirations
Ah, this last point is the problem
Every time I’m there the nurse focuses only on that
my respirations.
there aren’t enough of them she says
as i talk with her freely and easily
it’s too low
as i laugh and tell her not to worry
But, alas, she continues to worry
every time is like a broken record
So why am i irritated?
two reasons
She’s trying to make something be wrong
where there is nothing wrong
yet, she ignored the most important
where there might actually be something wrong
my weight is down 8 pounds
in just one week
that is not normal
does she address that?
of course not
she hasn’t even looked at it
she hasn’t even compared weights
it’s all in the computer
but that does no good
unless you look at it
she doesn’t see (or even ask)
that i’m being evaluated for
things that can cause this
unusual and not so good
weight loss
it doesn’t matter because
what matters to her
is what she can see
my respiratory rate
i want to scream
but don’t
keep your eyes open
look ALL around you
wise old words
“There’s more to this
than meets the eye”
