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It’s an amazing expanse of land we have. It was a really long trip, 2 days 1000 miles. What a stark contrast that’s going to be for the next 6 days. It’s so interesting to me how much of the US i get to see going to these events – most of my races are east of San Antonio where everything is green. This race, though, is to the west where everything is brown….and desolate.
It reminds me so much of my attempted trek across the United States in 2019. That was much more of a success for me than you can imagine even though I didn’t complete it.
It was the beginning of my change. It laid the groundwork for IFS to do its magic in the following years.
Talk about stepping out of your comfort zone. Although I had wanted to do that for 30 years I had never had the courage until 2019. But wanting to and actually doing are two different things.
It required me to make work decisions and therefore decisions affecting my income. Would I retire or not?
I had to have consistency and determination to walk every day but one every week.
I was supposed to have been able to survive on my own and I was prepared to but ended up having support every day. Once again. The universe was looking out for me.
I had to learn to accept help from total strangers. That was the hardest of all. Even harder than covering all the miles.
I made friends for life. People who had never met or even heard of me came out to support me in any way i needed.
I would love to finish it but know that I now need support and just don’t have enough people to do that. I am asking the universe for guidance.
Why is if still so deep within me. I don’t know why. I only know that I really want to continue to see the country I served.
Thanks for listening to me ramble.