Message 349

It’s an amazing expanse of land we have. It was a really long trip, 2 days 1000 miles. What a stark contrast that’s going to be for the next 6 days. It’s so interesting to me how much of the US i get to see going to these events – most of my races are east of San Antonio where everything is green. This race, though, is to the west where everything is brown….and desolate.

It reminds me so much of my attempted trek across the United States in 2019. That was much more of a success for me than you can imagine even though I didn’t complete it.

It was the beginning of my change. It laid the groundwork for IFS to do its magic in the following years.

Talk about stepping out of your comfort zone. Although I had wanted to do that for 30 years I had never had the courage until 2019. But wanting to and actually doing are two different things.

It required me to make work decisions and therefore decisions affecting my income. Would I retire or not?

I had to have consistency and determination to walk every day but one every week.

I was supposed to have been able to survive on my own and I was prepared to but ended up having support every day. Once again. The universe was looking out for me.

I had to learn to accept help from total strangers. That was the hardest of all. Even harder than covering all the miles.

I made friends for life. People who had never met or even heard of me came out to support me in any way i needed.

I would love to finish it but know that I now need support and just don’t have enough people to do that. I am asking the universe for guidance.

Why is if still so deep within me. I don’t know why. I only know that I really want to continue to see the country I served.

Thanks for listening to me ramble.

Message 347- Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone. This will be a very loose message since most people are doing other things today.

Snoopy said:
“Last year, this day, things were so different.
Next year, this day, things will have again changed.
Where you are today is your latest spot, not the final one. You have no idea how magical the universe is.”

Although today is a day of celebration for many, the important thing is to realize that you are here today no matter where that “here” is.

Enjoy life, enjoy people, enjoy everything. You never know what the next hours or days will bring.

Think back over all your Christmases and see what’s happened in all those years.

This is the very first year that I wish I wasn’t traveling and actually wished I had a place to go. Don’t feel sorry for me because that’s cause for celebration. I don’t know why this has happened although I suspect it is from all the IFS work I’ve done.

I always wanted to avoid Christmas because it was never a very happy holiday. Alcohol will do that to a family. I never felt I belonged on the one day of the year a child should feel totally loved and wanted.

It’s taken me all these years to get to this point and I’m grateful to have gotten to this point. As they say better late than never.

And I just have to tell you about the two unexpected Christmas gifts I got. The universe takes such good care of me.

The first made me as excited as a kid getting her first bike. I plugged my phone in the usb port of my car two days ago and lo and behold CarPlay connected and worked. I have been unable to get it working for the entire year and a half I’ve had the car. But all of a sudden it works. The only thing I can figure is that the other battery case I had might Have obstructed it being read. I switched cases and this is the first time I’ve plugged it in since the switch.

And then I had a box of power bars left over from some race and as I was getting everything ready for my trip I heard something rattling around in the box. Out fell a necklace I’ve been looking for for over 6 months.

What more could a girl ask for?

Have a wonderful day. I’m on the road now and my race starts Sunday morning. I’ll tell you more about it as it gets closer.

Merry diamond Christmas