Daily Gratitude: Good ole Charlie Brown for bringing all my experiences of the second half of 2025 into a refocused perspective.

Another great way of saying control the controllables. If you look all around you, you’ll find so many different ways to express the same thing.

So what did I have to let go of?

For starters I had hoped I would do great (for me) at vol state. Well as you all know, that didn’t happen. But I learned to accept help that was offered. I wasn’t at the point yet, where i could ask for it but I was able to accept it from several sources.

As a result of letting go of those expectations I discovered more about myself than ever via my parts and IFS and writing my book

I thought “ok that’s a fine little bump. Now let’s get back to normal.”

Ha ha. Letting go of the expectation that I could finally finish this nemesis- the 112 mile race over Labor Day. Bang. There went my clavicle.

But instead of trying to prove how strong I was I finally did ask for help and was honored by my friend sacrificing 3 days to rescue me.

At that point I had to put all other expectations on hold – doing more podcasts and most of all finishing up my book

I learned a lot about patience and learning something new. I also learned more about the value of gratitude because I knew there are many people out there that would give anything to “just” have a fractured clavicle.

This was followed by a medical procedure that kept me from eating for 2 1/2 weeks. That really went against all expectations. But it also reset some of my food and appetite centers in a way I don’t understand yet.

That should have been it for the not living up to expectations but no. I was planning to use the upcoming race as good kick off training for 2026 vol state. Then I was out of commission for 7-8 days. There went that expectation. So living in the present on that is the fact I will go to have fun and evaluate what my body can do. And use that as kick off training. It’s just a different form but it will be excellent.

What have you learned from 2025?

Daily Gratitude: This is a tough one. It’s hard to agree with when the pain you have is intense and/or chronic.

It refers to both physical and emotional pain. The emotional pain is often worse at this time of year. “Everyone else is happy. Why can’t I be happy?” I know quite a few people who are experiencing their first Christmas without a loved one. It’s there like an open wound. And every thought or comment from another is like drinking iced coffee when you have a bad tooth. Or even just breathing in cold air.

There isn’t much you can do but endure it. But there may be messages in that pain that we need to hear. We can’t hear them if we’re bustling about though, trying to make it all go away.

I’ve been less than healthy for the past month or so – one thing or another. But it’s forced me to slow down and reevaluate what I’m doing and what I want to do. It’s also given me the opportunity to just work on my book since I felt too cruddy to do anything else. That’s something I’ve never done before. I would have fought it constantly – and not gotten anything done. I could have complained but I would have just been spinning my wheels. I could have been upset that I wasn’t walking and that would put me behind in training and I wouldn’t do well in this upcoming race.

But all of that speculation and disdain for my circumstances would only have gotten me in a tizzy and I wouldn’t have accomplished anything.

See if you can sit with your pain. Thank if for bringing you it’s message and ask for guidance on how best to receive the message. Can you comfort your pain? Can you think of it as a little child seemingly upset because something isn’t going right in its world? What would you do to help comfort that child? Can you address your pain in that way?

Can you describe its characteristics? What does it look like? Where is it? What emotions is it generating? Are you willing to experience those emotions? Or do you just want to shove everything in the pantry closet and get it out is the way? Maybe there’s no more room in your pantry. I know there isn’t in mine. This year has been about clearing out that pantry and using it for what it’s intended for, not to shove my emotions out of the way.

There’s no perfect answer here and it’s not easy at all. But can you at least try to ask some of these questions and see what comes up?