“At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.”
Charlie Brown

Good ole Charlie Brown for bringing all my experiences of the second half of 2025 into a refocused perspective.

Another great way of saying control the controllables. If you look all around you, you’ll find so many different ways to express the same thing.

I know I probably talk too much about myself and what happens a to me and i mentioned most of these last week or maybe this Week but this discussion is a more nuanced perspective. I hope that’s
ok.

So what did I have to let go of?

For starters I had hoped I would do great (for me) at vol state. Well as you all know, that didn’t happen. But I learned to accept help that was offered. I wasn’t at the point yet, where i could ask for it but I was able to accept it from several sources. Dr Gilbert, all of you and my guardian angel by proxy- a man named Ray k.

As a result of letting go of those expectations I discovered more about myself than ever via my parts and IFS and writing my book

I thought “ok that’s a fine little bump. Now let’s get back to normal.”

Ha ha. Letting go of the expectation that I could finally finish this nemesis- the 112 mile race over Labor Day. Bang. There went my clavicle.

But instead of trying to prove how strong I was I finally did ask for help and was honored by my friend sacrificing 3 days to rescue me.

Then I had to put all other expectations on hold – doing more podcasts and most of all finishing up my book

Living in the present I took Ramona’s advice and used a speech to text app to get out some thoughts for my book. And I learned a lot about patience and learning something new. I also learned more about the value of gratitude because I knew there are many people out there that would give anything to “just” have a fractured clavicle.

This was followed by a medical procedure that kept me from eating for 2 1/2 weeks. That really went against all expectations. But it also reset some of my food and appetite centers in a way I don’t understand yet.

That should have been it for the not living up to expectations but no. I was planning to use the upcoming race as good kick off training for 2026 vol state. Then I was out of commission for 7-8 days. There went that expectation. So living in the present on that is the fact I will go to have fun and evaluate what my body can do. And use that as kick off training. It’s just a different form but it will be excellent.

I am proud that I’ve been able to respond to each of these things and not react. I’m also happy that I had these experiences and could learn from them and realize that things always do pass if we can sit back and wait for that to happen.

What have you learned from 2025?